I think I’ve been an idiot a lot lately.
I love watching the show Smallville. There’s this one scene in particular that I can relate to right at this moment in time. Lionel Luthor closes down a LuthorCorp plant in Smallville and publicly blames it on his son, Lex. Lex tells Clark what’s happened, saying that people in the town have two theories: either Lex ran the plant into the ground intentionally because he’s trying to get back at his dad for something OR he did it out of incompetence. He and Clark go on to discuss which of those two perceptions Lex would prefer people to have, and Lex says that being viewed as evil but brilliant is far better than having people view him as an idiot.
In the past, I think I’ve always agreed with Lex. It hurts less for people to admire my intelligence and execution than to have them admire nothing at all.
That’s dumb, though. It may make me feel better to know that I’m admired, but shouldn’t I rather take care that I’m not rotting inside with evil?
John Candy in Cool Runnings said that “a gold medal is a wonderful thing, but if you’re not enough without it, you’ll never be enough with it.”
Why don’t I get that? I’ve been watching that movie & memorizing it since I was YOUNG, but I still think my relationships with people and with God are based on the gold medals… the competencies rather than the heart.
Quit trying to earn and deserve things that can’t be earned or deserved!
*If you recognize this post, that’s because I originally published it way back in September of 2010, and have revised it and added a poll for your current reading and participating pleasure.