Dear Past Katie,
You are good at so many different things – softball and writing, Math and cooking, playing board games and making people laugh. You’re a good friend with a big heart, and you shouldn’t feel the need to hide that heart the way you do. Having a heart isn’t a weakness. It’s okay to feel. You are beautiful and brilliant, and should be told those last two things every day, because they are SO hard to believe. Believe them anyways. And stop defining yourself by what you’re good at. If all of the things you’re good at abandon you (and they will), you’re still an amazing girl. You still have value and you are worth getting to know. You are so much more than what you are good at, and until you know that, you will struggle in an attempt to earn what can’t be earned.
You haven’t made a whole lot of mistakes yet, but you will. So far, you’ve lived a life that from the outside looks perfect. It isn’t. You’ll make romance mistakes and friendship mistakes and family mistakes and education mistakes and all sorts of mistakes. It’s okay. It might not seem like it now, but there are people out there who will love you through the mistakes. You’ll have trouble letting them, but they will love and protect you, and you don’t have to earn their attention. They’ll give it to you for completely selfless reasons that you can’t understand right now.
Finally, give God a chance. This is the only advice I can give you that carries any weight. Don’t do it because Christianity is another thing you can be good at… do it because no matter how hard you try, you’ll never be good enough. If you throw 20 perfect games, write the great American novel, and marry a smokin’ hot millionaire, it won’t be enough. It won’t make your family love you for you. It won’t make you more complete. It won’t change anything. Life may seem like it’s about accomplishing things, but it isn’t. You won’t be happier in a more seemingly-perfect life. You won’t be happy until you give God a chance. Trust me. After all, I know you pretty well, and of all the people in this world who can advise you well, I’m pretty high up there on the list.
With Love and Adoration,