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God’s Will???


Andy Pelander on a decision that faced him in the past:

“I mean, what was He doing giving me two viable options? … How was I supposed to choose? What was the right decision? I mean, was He testing me? Was He just messing with my mind?”

A friend told him:

“God has presented you with two different adventures, okay. He has given you two adventures. So… don’t make a decision based on fear….”

Andy’s thoughts later:

“This was a good friend because she helped me realize something about God’s will: that He is far less concerned with what we do than with who we are becoming.”

 

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The first chapters of Ezekiel…


It has to have been like ten years since I’ve read Ezekiel, because I don’t remember any of the stuff I’ve come across since beginning to re-read it a week ago.

Thing #1 I don’t remember…

I don’t remember God telling Ezekiel that he needed to eat bread cooked over human dung. I don’t remember Ezekiel being like, “Whoa… that’s crazy unclean!” and God being like, “Okay, I’ll allow you to eat bread cooked over cow dung instead.”

Thing #2 I don’t remember…

I don’t remember God telling Ezekiel to go into the middle of the city and cut some of his hair off and burn it, and cut some of it off and let it blow away in the wind, and cut some more of it off and bind it to his robe. Mind you, I get that all of that is symbolic of the Israelites and their just punishment.

Thing #3 I don’t remember…

I don’t remember God saying that he was going to kill the idolaters, scatter their bones around their idols for everyone to see, and then saying in Ezekiel 6:9 & 10, “… then those of you who escape will remember me among the nations where they are carried captive, how I have been broken over their whoring heart that has departed from me and over their eyes that go whoring after their idols. And they will be loathsome in their own sight for the evils that they have committed, for all their abominations. And they shall know that I am the Lord. I have not said in vain that I would do this evil to them.”

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Now, I’ve totally read Job, and even though I don’t fully accept my place in the world, I intellectually grasp the idea that God is great and I am not. I get that, like Job, “I am of small account,” and wasn’t present when He laid the foundations of the earth. I didn’t determine its measurements, command the morning and cause the dawn to know its place, or walk the recesses of the deep (Job 38 & 40). And so I don’t bring this up to be imply that God is wrong, but just to put forth one of those things in the Bible that I really don’t understand, because the entire book of Ezekiel so far seems SO messed up to me. And I don’t know that I’d have been obedient had God commanded me as he commanded Ezekiel.

Not only did God tell Ezekiel to do some pretty crazy things, but he also said that if Ezekiel didn’t obey and warn the wicked, “his [the wicked person's] blood I will require at your hand,” (3:18). Then we also have Hebrews 10:31 that tells us “it is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God,” and I shiver at the thought of the prophet’s plight. Last night, Lori and I were talking about how there’s probably not much that’s more difficult in the whole history of the world than to be a prophet sent by God. There have been times when I’ve said things that I believe God put me in certain places to say, but we’re talking about tiny rebukes like, “You know, maybe you shouldn’t talk about that person that way,” but never anything like, “So… I’m sorry if this sounds harsh, but if you don’t get your whoring heart under control and leave your wicked ways, God’s plan is to kill you and put your bones on display for the world.” Additionally, the people who I’ve had to rebuke generally respond by grudgingly agreeing that I’m right, or crying. Somehow, I don’t think the upcoming chapters of Ezekiel chronicle the tears of the Israelites or how they stopped being friends with Ezekiel but also stopped worshipping idols.

I don’t get how it’s possible that Ezekiel was so thoroughly faithful and obedient that he ate bread cooked over dung, cut off all his hair and did odd things with it for everyone to see, and told his neighbors that they were evil and God planned to scatter many of them throughout the earth and kill the rest. That kind of thing takes a greater trust than I possess.

 
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Posted by on October 27, 2012 in Random

 

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A Chosen Race and Royal Priesthood


In a sermon from a few months ago, Matt Chandler described the question, “Who are you?” as a psychological trap, and that’s what it feels like to me.

But he continued on to explain how he used to struggle with the difference between who he is and what he does, and while I’ve been aware of this same struggle within myself since way back when the Disney Channel first aired Brink’s dad telling him that “skating is what you do; it’s not who you are,” I think I’m still stuck in the sludge of expectations.

My friend Melissa once said that it would be nice just to exist, but the concept of letting my self be is very mystical and abstract to me, and it’s also one of the most difficult tasks on my to-do list. My expectations of myself border on the obsessive-compulsive and perfectionist sometimes, and the expectations others have for me seem only slightly less rigorous.

But Matt Chandler’s point was that we are a royal priesthood, and that identity isn’t based on what we do.

The other day, Shasta and I were talking, and she said something that reminded me of that passage in 1 Peter

She was feeling like she didn’t have anything to offer in our friendship; she and I have been a bit more distant than usual, and she was discouraged by some of the differences in our personalities that have felt amplified in recent weeks, namely my need to read every book and know everything… and her need to have fun and be silly.

Of course I like to have fun and be silly too, and she likes to read and know things, but she was feeling as if I prefer friends who talk books and teaching, and have lots in common with me.

While I do have friends who read and geek out with me over the classics, I’ve never really thought about wanting that specific brand of friendship more than I want any other. Shasta had unfortunately been around me and a teacher friend a few too many times and observed us celebrating our classrooms, followed quickly by discussions of ComiCon and Eureka.

But those parts of my personality have never been defining factors in my understanding of myself. If anything, I’ve thought of myself more as an athlete, and accepted the fact that most of my friends will never be able to understand how completely softball consumed me.

But, you know, my previous roommates also mentioned feeling like I didn’t need them, and actually observed the goofy version of myself I fall into when I’m with Shasta, or the slower, gentler way I am in my friendship with Lauren, and they weren’t sure what they could or should do as my friends. One of them said she understood that Lauren was the one I confided in, but wished I would choose to confide in her. The other believed that she and I should have been closer than we were, because we matched each other pretty well intellectually.

And while I admit, I really do need to get better at needing people, I also think there’s something to be said for friendships being unmerited, because the thing I most enjoy with friends… is just existing. Sometimes we all need that, and maybe it’s weird, but I’d rather spend a chill time sitting with friends and not talking than share hours of fun interacting with our common interests.

I’m so freaking tired lately. Working 6/5ths is taking its toll, and while Shasta fears she may not have anything to offer me, I know I don’t have anything to offer anyone. I don’t have anything brilliant to say, and Bible Study is a perfect example of that; I’ve noticed that a lot of us have lost our get-up-and-go, so we’ve been fumbling through our discussions, sort of like the droopy clocks in that Dali painting.

But I think/hope we all still claim each other, which is a beautiful living picture of God’s grace for each of us. I haven’t been doing much in His name lately. I haven’t shared my testimony, finished that painting I’m doing for church, finished reading that biography about Katharina Von Bora, or helped any orphans.

But I think and hope He still claims me.

Chandler’s sermon reminded me that I’m part of a chosen race and royal priesthood. That’s who I am. The rest of it is important, but it doesn’t change the answer to the question, “Who are you?”

I’m an adopted daughter. I’m claimed. I belong.

And I wouldn’t be a very good friend if I stopped claiming Shasta just because she hasn’t been to ComiCon or because she chose to be a nurse rather than a teacher.

 

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What Should I Expect From a Sermon?


When I attended church the first time, the things I wanted were very different from what I want now.

I wanted to get in, get out, and move on. I only agreed to attend church in an effort to appease a bible-thumper I couldn’t seem to shake. Additionally, I was curious about Christians, because I didn’t really know any, and I wasn’t sure if they were anything like the picture I had of them.

After a few months of sneaking in and out of my mega church every Sunday, my desires changed. The sermons were usually titled something like, “How to Love Your Family Well” or “How to Make Time for the Important Stuff”… and even though it seems like I’m about to say that the pastor took verses out of context and pieced together a message of blasphemy, that wasn’t actually what he did. There were inevitably some verses taken out of context, but for the most part, the pastor was preaching through the Old Testament and its stories. Of course I heard about Mr. Nebuchadnezzar a time or two too many, because our Pastor Man was obsessed with the first appearance of swamp cooling in the desert (which he attributed to a certain Babylonian King), and I got really tired of that video clip from The Dead Poet’s Society that he showed every other Sunday, BUT that pastor of mine also did something pretty cool: he used biblical stories to build life principles. Okay, so you think that’s not all that special? I concede that I’ve probably done something similar to what he did in my subconscious ever since the first time I heard (and understood) a story… but I’d never seen a pastor draw such a clear connection between what happened in a story, and how I ought to be living.

So I came to expect that church and faith were really just about following the “how to” secret code of the Bible.

But I was a baby Christian; I can’t quite say that I wasn’t a Christian, but neither can I say that I truly knew God. Because I wasn’t trying to know Him.

A few years later, I’d read the Bible through-and-through, and was pretty sure I’d figured out how to do this weird life thing. I landed at a new church, and the sermons were really different, because none of them were “how tos” and when I asked my new pastor for advice, he’d rarely tell me what I should do as if he’d read it from a manual. I read Knowledge of the Holy and started listening to Matt Chandler sermons, and all of a sudden I wanted church to be about God. I wanted to know His behaviors, His motivations, His words, His affections… everything. And I thought sermons should be about describing Him.

So.. “Lafou, I’m afraid I’ve been thinking.”

“A dangerous pastime.”

“I Know.”

What do pastors try to do with their sermons?

Do they try to tell us how to live? Do they seek to describe God? Or do they set out to do something else entirely?

I’ve read blog posts before, written by pastors to pastors about the unfair expectations their congregations have of their sermons, and it makes me wonder what my expectations are and whether they’re fair or not. I like to think I expect pastors to do exactly the thing they’re trying to do: use words, emotion, body language, media, examples, and every other part of their existence to create a 30-50 minute vision of the Almighty.

That’s quite the assignment, you say? Well, sure. And we’d be fools to begrudge our pastors for falling short pretty regularly when they attempt to describe something they won’t experience fully until they’re dead, but the more I think on it, the more I’m haunted by that crazy mathematician-scientist who occasionally rode a bicycle, about whom Charles Misner wrote, “The design of the universe…is very magnificent and shouldn’t be taken for granted. In fact, I believe that is why Einstein had so little use for organized religion, although he strikes me as a basically religious man. He must have looked at what the preachers said about God and felt that they were blaspheming. He had seen much more majesty than they had ever imagined, and they were just not talking about the real thing. My guess is that he simply felt that religions he’d run across did not have proper respect for…the author of the universe.”*

Do you think Einstein had unfair expectations? And were his expectations those of everyman or were they the extraordinary thoughts of a brilliant mind?

Sermons that are heavily weighted with life instructions are my roots… and yet, I look upon them now knowing there’s better, and I question whether the true obstacle facing a teaching pastor is his congregation’s unfair expectations. I don’t require that my shepherd be entertaining, clever, or even practical, although I appreciate it when he is those things. I’d much rather he attempt the impossible and fail every time, because it is a far greater favor to his sheep when he stumbles over the vast magnificence of the Almighty with them watching.

I believe that my expectations of sermons have grown as my vision of God has grown, and maybe that’s true of others as well. Of course there are demoralizing meanies who critique pastors when they’re bored, but I think most of us yearn for sermons that prompt our visions of God to grow. We want to see that our pastors know and preach of a God who is infinitely greater than what we’ve seen of Him, and to feel confident that we haven’t outgrown our instructors.

Perhaps those things are unfair… I certainly can’t imagine anyone being up to the task, but neither have I ever known a good pastor who thought he was.

What do you think? Do we have unfair expectations of our pastors and their sermons? What does a good sermon even include?

*I took that quote from Let the Nations be Glad by John Piper.

 
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Posted by on July 10, 2012 in God/Faith, The Church

 

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Deserving to be Damned


Heads up: The following quote is pretty offensive, but not all offensive things are untrue. I agree with Dawson, but I totally get it if you don’t.

Humanity does not deserve the love of God any more than you or I do. We should never be Christian humanists, taking Jesus to poor, sinful people, reducing Jesus to come kind of product that will better their lot. People deserve to be damned, but Jesus, the suffering Lamb of God, deserves the reward of His suffering.”

John Dawson Taking Our Cities for God (208-209)

I’d never thought of salvation this way… that Jesus deserves for us to be saved. Enlightening, eh?

 
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Posted by on June 21, 2012 in Books, God/Faith

 

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